Spring is all about florals and pretty colors. But to be honest, after a while I get kinda tired of seeing the same style of florals in artwork and fashion. I thought it’d be cool to switch things up and create abstract floral for this month’s wallpapers.
Abstract art really inspires me because it’s almost as if the artist left a part of the process up to me to finish. I become part of the piece as I imagine what it could mean or what the empty spaces and shapes could become. There’s an element of anticipation and reflection that I enjoy.
I hope these pieces help you reflect and inspire you to become part of the art process. May they remind you to have hopeful anticipation for whatever God has in the works for you.
There are two versions of the artwork. One with illustrated details and one without. I love them both! To download the wallpapers, long press or right click on the images below.
It’s good to put down the phone and close the laptop. Doing work with my hands helps me stay creative and inspired. It’s also a fun way to take care of my mental health. But sometimes DIYs can be overwhelming for me. So I like ones that I can do in a day or two.
Here are some Spring DIYs you can try this weekend:
1. Monogrammed Ring Cones If you’re a jewelry girl like me, then this ones both fun and practical. I can never have enough trinkets to store and display my fave accessories. (via Brit+Co)
2. Song & Scripture Cards Download, print, and listen. Easiest DIY for those of you who aren’t master DIYers yet. (via Styld by Grace)
3. Black and White Painted Vase I’m in if it involves paint. It’s relaxing and always adds beauty to my home. And it’s never a bad idea to add some greenery indoors. (via Love Create Celebrate)
4. Mini Polymer Clay Bowls You can use these for your office, bathroom, or in your drawers. I usually use mini bowls like these to put paperclips or to store a couple small bottles of Essential Oils in my bathroom.
5. Compliments Candy Bars We all need a little encouragement sometimes. This is a perfect “Just because” gift for a friend that needs a small pick-me-up. Or if you’re hosting an event/get together, this works perfect as a party favor (via Oh Happy Day)
6. Terrazzo Style Notebook Covers It happens to me all the time–I find the perfect notebook but the cover just isn’t cutting it for me. These notebook covers are the perfect blend of simple and colorful. (via Enthralling Gumption)
7. Abstract Color Block Sneakers This is my favorite! And the one I’ll probably start with this weekend. I’m all for a paint project that I can WEAR, oh yeah! (via Enthralling Gumption)
Which one are you thinking of trying this weekend?!
The theme for March is Worship. And I thought it’d be special to incorporate one of my favorite worship lyrics in this Month’s wallpapers. If you know what songs it’s from, let me know in the comments 😉
Of course, I had to incorporate florals because March marks the start of Spring. But I wanted to make them look whimsy, almost otherworldly. When I look at these illustrations I see beauty, vulnerability, uniqueness, and mystery.
Worship is all those things and more. It’s unique to each person. It helps us see the mystery of heaven and God. And it is beautiful when it’s authentic and vulnerable.
I hope you’re ready for more talks on worship this month, as we prepare our hearts for Easter in April!
To download the wallpapers, long press or right click on the images below.
We have been trying to get pregnant for over three years now. And the journey has been very difficult. I wish I could sugar coat it and say there have been pros to this but the honest truth is that it sucks. As I researched a little before starting to write this post, I found articles on how infertility has ruined marriages, women’s bodies, couples mental health, and how IVF (in vitro fertilization), is not recommended. In general, most articles were honest, which I appreciate, but so negative.
Side note: If you're going through infertility, don't google about it. It's freakin scary. Talk to someone you know has or is going through it, instead.
The reality is pretty heavy and painful and I’m going to be as honest and transparent as I can, but I will not allow my pain to dismiss that there is ALWAYS hope when you have God on your side. Infertility sucks. But God is good.
It has been a long journey so far. We started trying to get pregnant in 2016 while we were still living in a small apartment. We were anxious to move to a new place so we could have more space for our growing family. So we decided to move to a new city, buy a home we could afford, with enough room for the children we were hoping to have. Fast forward to 2019, we have a 4 bedroom home and no kids. Just me, my husband, and my mom who lives with us. And an empty room waiting to become a nursery.
In 2017, after trying for a year I decided to let my Gyno know and she recommended for us to do a bunch of tests. Blood work, ultrasounds, semen analysis, etc. After all the exams, we met with her again and my results came back normal. But my husband’s didn’t. And on the report, it read: IVF ONLY.
I was in shock. One minute we were trying naturally–just doing exams to check what was going on. And all of a sudden, we were being told IVF was the ONLY way we’d get pregnant. It was painful, scary, and I felt sad that my husband had to carry this burden.
I did not understand how or why God would let this happen to us. We had done everything in our ability to live in a way that was pleasing to Him. We had made purity when we dated and in marriage a top priority. And we served Him faithfully. I was so confused.
We decided we weren’t ready to take such a big step so we waited for a while. We knew that doing a procedure like IVF was financially, physically, and emotionally draining. It wasn’t until we felt the “ok” from God that we moved forward. In the summer of last year, I spoke to someone very dear to me who encouraged me to call my insurance to see if IVF was covered. She encouraged me to not let fear get in the way of a blessing. And I did just that. To our surprise, our insurance covers it! And that motivated us to look for a fertility clinic that we felt comfortable with. (Side note: our clinic doesn’t take insurance for some parts of the process so we will have to pay a few Gs out of pocket. As Jimmy Fallon would say, “EW”). After lots of research, we made an appointment.
Making an appointment was a big step for us. It meant that we were ready to face our fears. And it also meant that we were out of our denial. This was an issue. We are really struggling with infertility. And we were taking a step medically to address the issue.
When we met with our doctor, he had us do MORE test and exams. He suggested meeting with a urologist before we even decided our next steps. He explained what his predictions were but wanted to make sure we took every step necessary before we went down the IVF route. This made me feel at peace. I knew he had our best interest at heart. But it was also very frustrating because it meant more waiting and potentially more tests which means more money, too.
The latter part of 2018, was filled with lots of appointments with a urologist who is helping my husband improve the root cause of infertility. He’s been on medication for a while now. After a few months of being on the medication, we were told there wasn’t much improvement. Not enough to try for an IUI (Intrauterine insemination), which is a step before IVF. Another letdown.So we decided that we’d keep trying naturally while Edward took this medication to see if after a few months there was an improvement.
And that’s where we’re at right now. We are waiting. And our next appointment is coming up. To be honest, the weeks leading up to our appointments are hard for me. They remind me of what we’re dealing with. It puts focus on something that I wish so badly wasn’t true.
Throughout this process, I have wrestled with God. I have made my pain and my anguish known to him. And in return, He has comforted me and also admonished me. He has searched my heart. He has healed me from a lot of junk that I have carried for years. He has brought to light the fact that my relationship with Him has been a means to an end in many cases. He has helped me celebrate other women and their children in the midst of my pain. He has helped me cope with my pain as others became parents. And he has humbled my heart so that I don’t create an idol of this desire to become parents. Yes, even something as good as being or becoming a parent can become an idol.
There are so many articles that speak of infertility ruining marriages and ruining lives in general. I am thankful that even though it has taken a toll on our relationship, we are stronger than ever. It’s not because we are the most awesome couple in the world, it’s because we have clung to God for dear life. And we have not separated ourselves from our community.
One thing I told myself a few months ago is that I REFUSE to let this consume me. I REFUSE to let this ruin any part of my life. I want us to be parents but not at the expense of my sanity, my relationship with God, or my relationship with my husband. If I’m being real, it’s on ME to let anything ruin my life. I get to decide if I will truly believe God’s word or if I will accept the enemy’s lies.
We are choosing to believe God. We are choosing to trust Him. We are taking every step cautiously so that we can hear from Him. Even though we are on the route to IVF, we don’t know for sure if that’s what we’ll decide to do. And if we do, we don’t know for sure if that route will result in a baby. And we don’t know for sure if we will ever have our own kids. Which scares me and makes me incredibly sad. But we DO know that God is faithful. And that miracles happen in many ways. Not always the way we imaged or wanted, but they happen.
The last thing we ever want is for people to pity us. For people to see us and say “I feel so sorry for them. They don’t deserve this”. I am aware that sharing all this might bring pity. And that kinda makes me nervous. I share this because I truly believe that God wants to use our pain. God doesn’t cause us pain, He is our Father and only wants good stuff for us. But he does use our pain to help us understand and be there for others.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. (2 Corinthians 1:3–5)
So, this is our story. It’s still being written. And I trust the hands that are writing it. I know His plans are bigger, better, and brighter than mine. I choose to humble myself before him and accept His will for our lives. I choose to celebrate in the middle of my pain. And I choose to allow him to use it for His glory.
If you’re currently going through an obstacle, loss, medical diagnosis, hard new season, whatever it is, know that you’re not alone. God is with you and wants to hear your heart. And I am here to say that your pain is valid and real and justified. I also want to say that no matter how deep the pain, there is hope. And that hope is Jesus. Cling to him. He will never let you down.