Three Months of Baby Phoenix And Coming Out Of The New Mom Fog

Month three for baby Phoenix came with the discovery of his hands, growth overnight as I put away all of his newborn clothes from one day to the next, lots of cooing and adorable smiles, and active sleep–rolling onto his side and moving all over his bassinet.

He’s fiery and passionate which translates to lots of crying. And although some days are really challenging, we hope and pray his passion will change the world and make it a better place.

The three month mark is a big milestone for this mommy too, as it wraps up the “fourth trimester”. I’m definitely feeling better physically and ready to get back to the things I did before starting IVF/getting preggo.

But here’s the catch, that was more than a year ago. And with the new mom fog starting to wear off, I realize that so much has changed. I have changed. What do I like to do now? What do I want to do next?

I’ve learned so much in the past year and while there is so much to share and create, at the same time it feels like there is not much more to say or do.

So what now?

What do I want for our future?
What will life look like with a full-time job, building this creative business, having a new baby, and being a wife?
Do I need to give something up?
Should I quit my job and find something new?
Should I be a stay at home mom?
Who will really be in my corner?
Do I like where my current relationships stand?
How can I make time to grow new friendships?
How am I going to get back in shape?
Should I just buy new stuff that’ll fit my new mom bod?
What do I have to share that’s valuable?
How will Styld by Grace evolve and grow in this new season?

After talking to a couple of my mom friends, they reassured me that these questions, thoughts, feelings, or whatever you want to call them, are completely normal and that they too have felt the same way after becoming a mom.

The greatest thing about seeing a baby grow is just that. Seeing growth every single day. As they discover the world around them, you rediscover it and learn a new perspective. This month, as Phoenix starts to really become aware of the world around him, I become aware of all the potential and growth that’s ahead. It’s exciting, nerve-wrecking, scary, fun, hope-filled, and a challenge worth pursuing.

To the new mom, the recent graduate, the new wife, or anyone going into a new season: there’s so much more ahead than there is behind. Keep asking yourself the hard questions and keep taking the next best step.

Two Months of Baby Phoenix During A Global Pandemic

No one could’ve expected these crazy times, right? I’m sure you’re reading this while being home for quite some time. We’ve been staying home since baby Phoenix was born. He was born right before the nation closed due to COVID-19.

Being quarantined while having a newborn has been sweet. We’ve been able to savor every single moment and milestone. But I also have to be honest and admit that it has also been very difficult, as we’ve had to be away from our tribe.

The birth of Phoenix was supposed to be the culmination of a really long and difficult season. We were looking forward to being with family, friends, and enjoying life with our new baby. There’s a bit (actually a lot) of sadness in my heart. What we are living is far from what I had hoped for and envisioned for this season.

I know I’m not the only person who’s experiencing loss during this crisis. And I want to say that our loss is legit. And it’s totally ok to process it. There’s many dreams, plans, and expectations that have been put on hold. And all we hear about is death, stressful statistics, and the pressure to “flatten the curve”.

Despite the loss and pain that we are feeling during this time, we must lean into the voice of truth: God’s word and His promises. On Palm Sunday, as we had church from home, while holding onto our miracle baby, God reminded me of something.

A year ago during this time we were starting IVF. We had NO IDEA if it would work. It was a complete leap of faith. But we beat the odds and have a healthy baby boy in our arms. Even though this season doesn’t look and feel anything like what I hoped it would, I am literally HOLDING living proof of God’s faithfulness.

When I see Phoenix, I see God’s faithfulness. Every day I struggle with fear of what could happen to him. We waited so long, went through such physical and mental hardship, and endured lots of heartache to have him. Anxiety sometimes is inevitable for me. But I remember that he was an impossibility at one point. And somehow, God made a way. His faithfulness saw us through.

As we continue to move forward during these trying times, let’s remember to focus on God’s unfailing love and faithfulness.

What are you HOLDING in your life as living proof of God’s faithfulness today? During really hard moments, return to those and be encouraged that God’s faithfulness is always with you.

And on that note, I’d love to share some baby milestones we are celebrating as Phoenix turns two months.

Month Two of Baby Phoenix:
• He loves music and singing with mommy
• He is smiling more and has the cutest dimple by his chin
• He is outgrowing some of his newborn clothes (bittersweet feeling)
• He is starting to hold his bottle
• He can get his arms out of his swaddle
• He has a fiery personality and the name Phoenix fits him very well 😉

Desert Theme Baby Shower for Baby Phoenix

I’m FINALLY getting to posting pictures of my baby shower, which was a MONTH ago. WOW! Time flies. I’m officially in the “nesting” season but I wanted to be faithful in documenting this miracle’s life.

We decided to have a desert themed baby shower to pay homage to our baby’s name–Phoenix 😉

This day was definitely one I had been dreaming about for a long time.

Actually, I’ve always kinda hated how corny baby showers can be.

But once the desire to have a baby starting growing and then going through a season of infertility, a baby shower become symbolic of a dream becoming a reality.

So life was all about finding cacti for a few months. And I’m STILL subconsciously looking for succulents and cacti without realizing it lol.

We looked for things on amazon, warehouses, Hobby Lobby and Michaels.

We also used a lot of things we already owned and repurposed them.

The books used to add height to decor were library books that we wrapped up with packing paper.

My favorite piece of decor was the cactus we found at Hobby Lobby. It’s the cutest thing ever!

I am incredibly grateful for my family who helped pull this off and made this day extra special.

Special shout out to my sisters and a couple of my closest girlfriends who went the extra mile to celebrate this day!

I’m incredibly grateful for the friends and family in my life who have held me up, encouraged me, and given me so much love in this whole journey.

This baby is loved and cherished so much and that makes this mama beam with joy and pride.

The best part of the entire day was opening gifts with my hubby. He is the best daddy ever already. And I was overjoyed to be experiencing this moment with him. WE ARE GONNA BE PARENTS! HOLY MOLY!

I hope you enjoyed seeing this miracle literally in motion. And I hope this encourages you to see GOD’S faithfulness and to be hopeful in the waiting. And if anything, maybe you found some party decor inspo while you were here 😉

Some funny things that will make us NEVER forget this day:
1. I strolled into the baby shower late without notice, very casually, and so we re-enacted my entrance to be silly.
2. A few of my family members got a stomach bug right after the baby shower and were sick for a couple of days. Surprisingly, I do not get sick.
3. We had tacos for lunch at the baby shower. They were delicious and a major hit!

Kick-Start 2020 With Inspirational Mobile & Desktop Wallpapers

We all need a little inspiration and a little push to get started with our new goals and plans. These wallpapers are meant to help you remember that you CAN do all things through Him who gives you strength.

They’re simple little reminders in pretty, feminine colors, that are easy to look at. I know every time you see them you’ll be encouraged to take the next best step forward.

To download the wallpapers, long press or right click on the images below.

These wallpapers are for personal use only and copyright Styld by Grace. Any redistribution, commercial use, and sale of these wallpapers is strictly prohibited.

Give Thanks With This 5 Days Of Thanksgiving Reflections Download

This Thanksgiving why don’t we take time to get back to the true purpose of Thanksgiving? Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE all the food and festivities. But it always feels right to focus on truly being thankful.

A genuine heart of worship and thanks can make all the difference during the next few days that will undoubtedly be busy and chaotic.

Give thanks with this 5 days of Thanksgiving Reflections Download that I created so we could pray, reflect, and kick-off this holiday season with a thankful heart.

There’s also a simple and beautiful Gratitude List that comes with the download. You can pass them out to guests at your Thanksgiving parties or fill it out with your family at the dinner table.

Download and printing instructions:

1. Download The 5 Days of Thanksgiving Reflections here

2. Print download on 8.5×11″ card stock paper

3. Once printed, cut each page in half

4. Each 8.5×11″ page should generate two separate 8.5×5.5” pages. One page should be a Day X page and the other page should be a Reflection & Prayer page (the last page ends with the Gratitude List).

5. Organize the download by placing the cover page on the front then ordering the rest of the pages from Day 1 to Day 5. Make sure there is a Reflection & Prayer page between each Day. The last page should be the Gratitude List.

Hope this download brings you closer to your family, friends, and Jesus. Happy Thanksgiving!

This freebie is for personal use only and copyright Styld by Grace. Any redistribution, commercial use, and sale of this freebie is strictly prohibited.